Woke Worry

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It has been a long week
with long days
and maybe a long life that some days
tire beyond living.
What I mean to say is that
until the thrush sings to my delight
a too late summer song from the deep shadow dark wood
that is tiring of its own green pressed thin by August’s heat, or
a sourwood leaf, blushing red to almost orange
earlier than the myriad others, catches the last sun of the too long day
and not so long life
as if to give up now what it worked so hard to earn in green,
catches my eye.
I can smile from within then,
at least give myself hope
and the thrush song stops but I can still hear it –
the echoes of three notes from one brown bird
whose shadow remains –
and the sun’s light slants lower
and the leaf glows red
no longer,
Then, I can breathe one more time,
at least
before I fall silent in darkness
too.

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J. Drew Lanham is a wildlife ecologist at Clemson University and a writer/poet. He is the author of The Home Place – Memoirs of a Colored Man’s  Love Affair with Nature (Milkweed, 2016), Sparrow Envy – Field Guide to Birds and Lesser Beasts and Joy is the Justice We Give Ourselves (Hub City, 2021 and 2024). His work on conserving wildness and illuminating social condition by personal identity can be found online. He is a 2022 MacArthur Fellow and lives on a farm in Seneca, South Carolina cultivating words and nurtures wildness.

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